The center of energy

When I was a child I hit my head frequently, and I have many scars- some more fleeting than others- to prove my accident prone ways of youth. I have read its not unusual for an Aries sun sign to have head injury...yet I'd go further than that.

It seems as if all my energetic awakening and struggles have centered around being hurt- luckily not receiving brain damage; instead, I've had surges of premonition, insight, energetic sensations of the body and systemic auto-immune related dysfunction.

I am well on the way to correcting the latter, while retaining the benefits of the psychic, perceptive and kundalini awakening. I think this all has to do with an evolutionary biological shake-up the stimulated my immune response to activate my DNA and perception so I could move forward in life. Since I can remember I always had this perception of gnosis or at least a creative awareness of the universal field. I remember "knowing" the Christ energy in church but feeling it in my DNA, the core of my energetic structure. I was extremely confused as to why everyone thought it was "one man", when I felt as if I was the one with the perception of godhood. Were we worshipful of an internal sense?

Later on of course, as I became a self-absorbed and troubled young artist I questioned this endlessly and thought I might have simply been a megalomaniac with a Christ complex! Obviously thats a rote explanatory thought for a more i depth issue....yet I finally realized after the paranoia subsided, "why would only I (one individual) feel this way?".

Surely others have felt this powerful energy, and as I looked into various energy work of the east, I was confronted with a quantum reality system that supported that notion of awakened DNA , or chi flow- yet how it manifests in each individual is anyone's guess.

Lately I have learned my perception is more active on the physical and nurturing, electrical-like chi modulating side of things, rather than a full fledged mentally active psychic who can split hairs and perceive things mentally without any "outside" physical perceptions being engaged, other than breathing, etc.

I wonder if the center of all this primordial energy is the center of the galaxy itself, and DNA is pumping like a zillion Niagara falls into the etheric field by some cosmic being who is just part of another huge galaxy, etc , etc. You can see where this goes- the fractal infinite. Not a new idea exactly!

The whole reason I bring it up is; if it is a harmonic ratio, then the eastern ways are the correct ways, or at least a major function in which to tune into the proper harmonics or wave forms so we align with the energetic core of everything, and engage the system rather than it dominate us.

Then the consciousness theories of Jung and Reich's works would be correct, while allowing Maslow's meta-human to emerge from the fray.

Perhaps all the "hurting" that goes on in the darkness of perception , subconscious routines and fear based repression serves the purpose of the shake up, to alert the DNA. We must embrace the rouge state of being, wake it, to at the very least PERCEIVE it before we can move forward individually or collectively as humans.